I've been leading coupon classes at church these last two Wednesdays with one to go. What a fun time! I didn't really understand the leading vs. teaching a class at church, but now I do. I really don't feel like I'm teaching. I feel like I am opening my mouth and a bunch a jibberish is coming out, I stay nervous before class and during the first few mins, and I just feel like I'm all over the place. But I pray before class, we pray together when it starts, and afterwards lots of people thank me for the class. This is so bizarre! God just works through people.
It's the same way He works through me when I am making cakes. Most of the time, I look at the cake and just see all of my mistakes. I see where it isn't perfectly smooth, or where there are some bubbles, or where the border is off. Others see the cake of their dreams. I try to pray before each cake, but always pray during... sometimes even after. This seems to be good enough for God, and that just amazes me. There have been cakes I have cried over, but prayed for them to bring glory to God and not myself, and the customer would come and gush about how fantastic that cake was.
Really Lord? You mean I just have to be still and you will do all of the work? I only need be obedient and you will work through me? Fantastic. Why do I get nervous before class again?